Wherefore Art Thou?

I’ve known for a long time that in addition to having the sister that I know, I have another sibling.

The sister I know? She lives in Peckham and we have the same mum but differing dads. The sister I don’t know? We have the same dad but differing mums. That sister, I only know her name, her age and obviously, our dads name. I have met her the once, way back when she was maybe 2ish and I was around 13 or so. Since then she has played on my mind constantly. Had she had a massively different upbringing than me, or had she grown up with the same stresses? Had our dad stuck with her or had he done one like he had with me?

I have tried to find her on a few occasions. I’ve been ripped off by private detectives, been turned for information from members of my dad’s family etc. Every time it knocks me confidence and makes me think that I’ll never find her.

However, in the spirit of taking care of business I have decided to take matters into my own hands. I looked on a website called Ancestry and narrowed down her month of birth and then her mums name, I think. I’ve taken that information and fed it into 192.co.uk and found the only possibility on there. Now unless I’ve somehow got things wrong, she lives in Essex. The rest of the information, like addresses and phone number costs £10.

So what’s stopping me from looking it up? I really don’t know. I suppose I don’t want to let myself down again. I don’t think I could cope with the disappointment. I suppose I need to think more clearly upon this but I really do come up against a brick wall.